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Fear of being Blind,
to see what the World have install for me.
Fear of being Deaf,
to listen to those magical melodies that the World brings.
Fear of losing my Voice,
to sing to the people i care on their Birthdays.
Fear of losing my feelings,
to feel the warmth when the Sun shine on me.
Fear of losing my mind,
to remember all the wonderful memories in me.
Fear of not seeing what is Right,
although it is illegal.
Fear of not seeing what is Wrong,
although it is legal.
Fear of being rejected for the wrong i've done,
and not forgiven by the Society.
Fear of not able to Love,
and lost all the colors in front of me.
Fear of not able to make love,
and fill the love tank of my Love.
Fear of walking by the beach at Sixty,
with no hands to hold beside me.
What i fear most,
was not able to live my life,
and just making a living to stay alive.

My Fear...

This is the story of a boy who lived inside of a man.
The boy and man were the same person, with one heart but two minds between them.
When the boy wanted to run, the man would walk.
When the boy wanted to cry, the man would shout.
When the boy wanted to play, the man would work.
The boy and the man did not see eye to eye on much of anything, except when it came to matters of the heart.
Both the man and the boy loved and shared alike.

One day the man decided to change his name and the boy was scared.
He feared he would be forgotten or left behind with all the other passing memories in time.
But the man reassured the boy that he could not be forgotten.
Because who he had been, and who he would become, were one and the same, and they would always remain alike.
This helped soothe the frightened boy and on that fateful day, both the boy and the man learned what strength was made of.
At first, many people did not respect the man's wish to be called by his new name and in the beginning the man was defiant.
But the boy reminded him of tolerance, and this is how they both learned what patience could accomplish.

After some time had passed the man grew wiser.
But the boy remembered all the sad stories - stories of other little boys who had faded into memories.
So, he made it a point to hold on.
He focused on remaining strong.

Then, one day, the man was called to war.
The boy might have gone, but the man knew better.
He knew that if he went, the innocent boy inside - his better self - would be lost forever.
So both the boy and the man learned courage.

After the man took a stand, holding onto his religious beliefs, he was stripped of all that the world thought made him special, and the boy became a survivor.
On that day both the boy and the man embraced forgiveness.
For the man knew that if he did not let go of his pain, their heart would harden.
Therefore, the boy and the man moved on.

After much time had passed, after struggling to carry on, the man was vindicated and his career returned to him.
Although the man forgave, the boy remembered his pain.
Yet, through this ordeal the man learned what faith insured, and the boy learned endure.
Although the future proved promising and the life of the man was rewarding, he would face many obstacles and would continue to be tested.
And through all of the joy, laughter, tears, and pain, the boy inside the man lived to tell the story;
He survived to share the glory.

By: Hana Yasmeen Ali

When a couple love each other very much,
both of them know it,
but things seems to go against each other everytime,
like it's destine to happen this way,
when do you say it's enough?
When do you pull the plug and say that you can't take this anymore?

Please leave a comment if you have something to say.

Everyone wants to be a winner, but what it takes to be a winner?
Money??
Luck??
Fate??
Talent??
I don't think so.
Then what makes a winner?

Take horse racing for example.
Horses are a magnificent animal.
They show you when they are happy or sad.
They throw their temper when they are angry or agitated.
They will run and fight with you all the way even when its nose bled.
And they will take the knifes and bullets for you, when two became one.

The Owner
The Trainer
The Jockey
And the Horse
You need these four character to win, but it doesn't guarantee you a winning horse.
Why?

The Owner - The boss or leader of the quartet.
Got to have lots of patience, trust and a very good pair of listening ears.

The Trainer - The wise one.
Need to know both the strength and weakness of the animal in order to get the best out of it.

The Jockey - The skillful one.
Need to understand, play, talk to the animal for he knows the animal will fight all the way for him.

The Horse - The simple one.

When the horse cross the finishing line and win the race that day, these four character are winners, for they can't do it alone.
All these four character working together hand in hand, over time, with pure honesty, faith, integrity and courage, therefore, these are the formula of a winner.

So in life, how to be a winner.
In life, there won't be a sole winner.
No one can win by themselves only.
There's only a winning team.
And to be a part of that winning team, you are a winner.
So which part of the team would you want to be?

The Owner that owns the team?
Without him there will be no team?

The Trainer that train the team?
Without him the team won't win?

The Jockey that rides the winner?
Without him there will be no winner?

When the team won, people tend to believe that they are the one that brings in the glory, they think that they can do it with anyone and they'll bring in the same victory.
They forget about the team.
Worst....they forget about the horse.

Who want to be the horse?
The horse that eat and sleep whatever the Owner provide.
The horse that train hard and complete all obstacles that the Trainer demand.
The horse that obey and being whipped at by the Jockey.
Do you want to be the Horse?

The simple horse that knows nothing about glory, money, victory, etc.
The horse that just compete, run his best and give his all.
Why?
Because the horse knows that without anyone of them, there'll be no team, there'll be no winner.
And this winning team is his family, that's all he knows.

Seen the movie Seabiscuit?
You'll know what i'm talking about.

To fly, you need wings.
To win, you need allies.

(In the tune of Jingle Bells)

meow meow meow...meow meow meow...
meow meow meow meow meow...
meow meow meow...meow meow meow...
meow meow meow meow meow...MEOW
meow meow meow...meow meow meow...
meow meow meow meow meow...
meow meow meow...meow meow meow...
meow meow meow meow meow...

MEOWY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

Life's goes on.

Your pet died
Your relationship end.
Your bills are due.
Your love no longer beside you.
Your heart dead.
Your brain freeze.
Your hope's gone.
Your wish got incinerated.
What still yours?

You lose your job.
You got bankrupt.
You got betrayed.
You got cheated.
You got a flat tyre.
You burn a hole in your shirt.
You depressed.
You disappointed.
You yell.
You shout.
You cry.

Life's goes on....
Without you knowing....Christmas is here again.

So let us look back and enjoy this Christmas,
to see what this world have left for you as presents.

The Sun still shine
The Birds still sing
The Moon still magical
The Wave still whisper
The Wind still blow
The Stars still twinkle
The World is still waiting
Just for You.

The people....love them

Merry Christmas everyone.
I love you all.

People nowadays look for a smooth day, not a great day but a day where everything goes smoothly.

Buses come on time so no need to wait and waste time.
Traffic goes smoothly so no late appointment.
Boyfriend/Girlfriend, Husband/Wife know what we are thinking so we don't get upset over little things.
Work get done on time, bosses appreciate your work, give you a raise or promotion.
Weather not too hot, not too cold, not too humid, not too dry, just nice.

At the end of the day, how many people stand in front of the mirror and say :"today is a great day and he/she would want to live it the same way again if given a choice."

So why the smooth day?

Even when everything is going smoothly, no one will be satisfied at the end of the day.

Most people aren't happy most of the time.
Have they chose the wrong path?
I don't think so.
They just not happy because they haven't got what they want.
They are not happy because they want more.
Like a simple mobile phone can't satisfy them. Why?
They forgot what they already have.

So why the smooth day?

Realise it before you lose it.

Mobile Phones.
Why we need them?

Mobile phones these days has become a gadget that everyone can't live without it.
Why?
To contact someone? Is that it?
I don't think that is it.
People want their mobile phone to be able to do more than that.
SMS/MMS, Wap/GPRS enabled, E-mail, Camera, Sound recorder, Video recorder, MP3, Radio, etc.
And to have all these is not enough, a higher megapixel for the Camera/Video, a bigger memory space for the MP3, a longer lasting battery, a user friendly format, want it faster, clearer, longer, BETTER.
Is this all necessary?

When is the last time you use your mobile phone to call your love one?
Birthday wishes through SMS/MMS.
Christmas greetings through E-mail.
Send them your picture/video saying that you miss them.
But when is the last time you really called?
I didn't. Not before 09/11/04.

I can still remember that night when i call my love then at that time, i was missing her so much.
I beg the officer to let me make a short phone call to her.
To hear her voice again over the phone makes me forget everything, the misery, the pain, the helplessness.
Never thought that a simple voice can be so powerful, so strong, so magical.
I tried very hard to held back my tears, just want to hear her talk, so i won't forget.
But i still forget what we talk that night, the impact was so much that i just shiver and not know what we talk about, i only remember that voice, the voice that keeps me going.

I got to write a letter every two weeks while i'm in there.
Just one letter form, for all the people I love.
This letter form is all i got, no telephone, no fax machine, no e-mail and NO Extra letter forms.
Just ONE, to reach out to my love.
I got so much to write.
I squeeze everything inside, and send out.

You can call your love one, people that you care about, your family, your friends, your boyfriend/girlfriend, your husband/wife.
Anytime, Anywhere, through your mobile phone.
A simple mobile phone will be able to help you do that.
No need SMS/MMS, no need WAP/GPRS enabled, no need E-mail, no need camera/video, just CALL.
Hearing their voices will make the difference, the voice that you love and care, the voice that love and care about you too.
No need fancy high tech phone, just a simple mobile phone will bring you there.
So...have you call?
I did.
That's what mobile phone all about.

Tomorrow will be my little sis 21st birthday.
It's been so long since i last celebrate with her.
This year, i can't.
She's having her special little celebration at Kukup.
Everyone's there, not me, i can't go.
The house is empty.

Will be starting a new job this coming monday.
I will work hard, i always did.
Must make some money by Christmas.

Christmas.
Thought it will be a very special one last year.
Got it all plan, the presents, the place, the person.
It meant a lot and so important to me.
BANG!
It's gone.

Life's unpredictable, treasure what you got.

I broke the law, sentence to 15 months
I broke her trust, life sentence, no appeal, no probation